Saturday, March 13, 2010

All Good Things Must Come to an End

Day 15
todays challenge: This one is more for me than anything, so you're welcome to take it or leave it. But, the challenge today is to stay off the internet all day long. I'm committing to 12 hours. But, of course you do what's right for you. Remember it's your own personal challenge, these are merely suggestions.

Not too difficult. I managed to stay away from the dang thing almost all day! I find it easy to do this with two small children that need me all.the.friggen.time. Not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing?

Day 16
todays challenge: Last week! Okay, todays challenge is a good one. I want you to memorize a quote or scripture that brings you peace. Don't know one? Google some! And when you find just the one, write it down on an index card and carry it around with you all day. Hopefully by the end of the day, not only will you have it in your head...but most importantly, it will permanently be in your heart.

That is my motto that I must remember. When I am stressed - I carry that outwardly and everyone else around me feels it too - only causing the situation to be more stressful. Vicious cycle. Not fun. Trying to work on it. Meh.

Day 17
todays challenge: Write a goodbye letter to someone or something that needs to go from your life. It's not necessarily a letter to be shared or sent, but written only to release your heart from the pain and hold it has on you. Maybe even find a symbolic way to destroy the letter after it's been written. Find a way to let it go.

Honestly, I haven't done this yet. I am going to do it today.

Day 18
todays challenge: Try something new. It can be ANYTHING. Just mix it up today, go wild and crazy.

Sadly...the only "wild and crazy" thing I did was take our youngest daughter to physical therapy for her torticollis. I learned all the "wild and crazy" things we have to do with her around the clock - 24 hours a day. Somehow I don't think this is the "wild and crazy" referred to in this challenge.

Day 19
todays challenge: Ask someone who is really close to you, that loves you a whole bunch, what one of your weaknesses are. {Ask them to to tell you in a LOVING & GENTLE way} Take that information and pray over it...and ask God to show you how to work on it. Do not, I repeat DO NOT, ask someone who does not have your best interests at heart. Because they will just be mean. And that's not the point. We're trying to GROW here.

I already knew the answer but was told:

Day 20
todays challenge: Can you believe it's almost the last day? Here's what I want you to do today....Make a list of all the things you loved about this challenge. Make another list of all the things you HATED. And then ponder why...You'll understand why tomorrow.


Day 21!!!
Your final challenge....write out what you learned, good and bad. Most importantly, take note of what will be taken with you as you walk away from these three weeks.

So what I learned is that I don't necessarily need Peanut Butter Oreos to get through the day. I am a lot healthier without them and amazingly...the scale moves a lot more without them too! :)

I learned that I need to spend more time with my 2 1/2 year old. It's hard when I am alone with her without help from the husband, but I need to try and do it more than I have been.

I learned to stop and count my blessings each day. When I am overwhelmed I need to remember I am truly blessed. There are others that have it worse than I do and I need to stop bitchin', take a look around and realize I am truly truly blessed.

I learned I REALLY need to work on my negative self talk. It has been a HUGE part of me my entire life (or at least as far back as I can remember). I NEVER EVER want my daughters to feel that way about themselves and I need to work my ass off getting to a point where I knock that crap off. THAT will be a huge hill for me to climb. It also was the toughest part of this assignment.

I learned to stop and just have FUN. When life is about to piss me off - stop and have fun. It is definitely therapy for an aching soul.

I learned going out of my comfort zone and doing things I don't normally do can sometimes bring about great rewards. I strengthened friendships by doing this and boosted my self esteem!

I learned I am not perfect. I never will be. I cannot be there for everyone every second of the day. Sometimes it IS all about me. Most of the time it isn't. But I am who I am. I am not superwoman and I am okay with that.

Now whether this challenge brought about 3 difficult weeks - or just life did - I don't know. It's funny how this challenge happened during some pretty rough times for me. But I am stronger for it. I am thinking more about myself because of it (and no, not in a selfish way - in a healthy way). Life is an ongoing challenge - it always will be. But I am happy. I am truly happy.

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