Friday, August 1, 2008

Saying Goodbye

I lost my grandma today. It has been a very hard day filled with tears, laughter and just good ol' family bonding. My grandma passed extremely peacefully and in her true style...still taking care of all of us in her final moments. By that I mean we were all going to send someone out to get us lunch because none of us had eaten. I was sitting next to her and as everyone was writing down what they wanted to eat, I noticed she had not taken a breath since the one before. I told everyone I think she had stopped breathing and sure enough, she had.

My grandmother would always say "go and eat...don't worry about me" and today...I think she was still saying that even in her final moments. She knew none of us would leave, we all even said that out loud, and I think she finally felt it was okay for us to leave and she let go and went home to be with the Lord.

We called hospice and they were truly wonderful with us. They were there for us at 4am this morning, sent someone over around 930 for about an hour and were with us until we left at 4pm this evening. My grandmother passed at 140 today.

Words cannot express how difficult this day has been. I lost someone whom I love more than life itself.

I am very peaceful and am doing okay. I am peaceful knowing she is at peace now.

Mam-ma...I love you so very much! I will miss you so very much but I know that you will always be with me, Emily, Erik, and all of us. I will see you again...


November 11, 1922 to August 1, 2008


Mommy on the Edge said...

I'm so sorry, Denise. I know the sadness you must be feeling and I also know the silent sigh of relief your heart is letting out too.

Please know you can talk to me anytime! *hugs*

Kimmy said...

Oh Denise, I am so very sorry!!! I know this time has been coming and it is always so difficult to loss those we love. It is my greatest fear! I will keep you and your family in my prayers during this healing process. I'm here for you if you need me.


Ashley said...

I am so sorry Denise. I am sitting here in tears for you. Cry when you need to, please do not hold it in. Lean on Erick for support, he loves you and that is what he is there for. Please let me know if you need anything. You are all in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. (((HUGS)))

Wendyt said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I am sad for you. I am praying for you and your family.

MommaKiss said...

I stopped over after you left a comment for me, sorry to find you at such a loss. Your Grandma sounds like she lived life to the fullest and went on her terms!
So sorry for your loss.
Any time you want a laugh, stop on back ;) I'm no holds barred, as Val can attest.
And still listening to my show tunes :)

Susan said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I am glad that you were able to have time with your grandma and that Emily was able to be with her. Your family is in my prayers. Hugs!

alison said...

I'm so sorry for the struggle you're going through. I'm sure you're slightly comforted by the fact she had a long, wonderful life, and it's great she got to meet Emily and you were able to say goodbye properly. Love you!

Anonymous said...

I love you...

Minxy Mimi said...

I am so sorry... this brings back memories to me... I am sorry for your loss, but glad that you had a wonderful grsndma and many memories. ((HUGS))