Sometimes I miss my carefree days. Sometimes I miss being able to go and hang out with the girls, drinking, talking, laughing, doing silly things. Sometimes I miss not having the huge responsibility. Sometimes I miss not being able to stay places as long as I'd like.
Tonight was my friend's daughter's birthday. I got there in time just to stay for a tiny bit and then head home. My friend Becky was down and I didn't get to spend much time with her either. I miss her a lot. I miss all our fun times.
Back in the day, after the birthday party, we would have all hung out, had some drinks, laughed, talked, whatever. Tonight...all that will still go on. But without me. I have a munchkin asleep in the other room. No silliness tonight from me, unless you count blogging and studying as silliness...which I guess in a way - it is!
Can't help but feel a tad sad tonight. As I started rocking the munchkin to sleep, I felt as if I was missing out. Missing out on the deep conversations, the girl things we use to do pre-munchkin days. Since having the munchkin I rarely see Becky. I didn't realize how much I missed her until I saw her tonight. Sometimes I feel that I have grown apart from most of my other girl friends. Our friendship went to a different level. I am not in the same place they are anymore.
But, looking at that little munchkin as she was drifting off to sleep, it reminded me that even though I miss my friends sometimes, it's worth it.